bad friend. angry sister. high school crush. not funny.

Helped a friend. Played with a friend. Ate soup. Played with more friends. Forgot a friend. Lost my temper. Got hit on by a friend. Got hit by a friend. Made someone laugh. Got offended. Played leapfrog. Went for a drive. Laughed a lot. Felt old. Regretted a mistake. Saw a deer. Offended someone. Made someone smile. Took a test. Ate mexican food. Snuggled with a blanket. Felt young. Slept. Drank a slurpee. Had a Big Pop. Wrote an email. Wrote another. Updated my blog. Watched some football. Proud of someone. Disappointed in someone else. Sang a primary song. Played the piano. Smiled. Frowned. The End.

stop and stare

Today was a good day. It feels good to be home. It makes me feel like not so much time has past away, even though its passing by faster than ever. I spent some time with my two little sisters and I can't believe how grown up they're getting. Moriya is more a teenager than ever with more attitude and agnst than any emo boy I've ever met. I love her to pieces but the girl just needs an attitude adjustment half the time, than again, maybe I was like that too. I suppose it is easy to judge now that I'm not 13 anymore. Lia is acting like such a grown up. I took her to the library today to check out some books. They had books for sale that didn't get checked out often or were just really damaged. It was only like a quarter a book, so I asked her if she wanted one. I had her read the first page of a Nancy Drew book aloud to see if the book would be too difficult for her. Before she even started I took a quick glance over the page and knew there would be no way she could read it, but the book was in her hands and I thought I mine as well let her try. My jaw dropped as she began to read the first paragraph. She didn't stumble at all. She didn't even read slowly to sound out the words. She got stuck on a few, but they were difficult words (I didn't know what a portico was when I was 9 either.) I was amazed. She is still my same baby sister, but she is getting so grown up.

For some reason I felt as though today had an underlying meaning. All day I felt like the outcome of it would have some lasting effect. I still don't understand it. I didn't do anything out of the norm. I went shopping, watched a movie, went shopping again, and watched a movie again. But something felt epic about it, like those parts in movies where everyone who is watching sees the fatal, oblivious flaw that I made. I can see them all through the screen just shaking their heads at me. I could feel it all day. And then, when I left my friends house and ran to my car in the 38 degree weather, I could feel it again. In flip flops, pajama pants, and a hoodie, I had to, just like in the movies, look up at the stars and just stop and stare.

Just rambling now...

Suddenly I feel as though my life went from a stress level of like 10.5 to 0.5 in just a matter of weeks. Everything that I was so worried about and stressed about all just melted away. I sold my apartment contract. I sent my transcripts to SLCC, I finished orientation. I aced my huge test. I'm finishing my final project for JCOM 2010, I got the gas bill and the utility bill out of my name. I quit both of my jobs (to move of course), I'm not worried about money, I'm not stressed about church, my life isn't crazy busy, in fact it’s rather dull. What a 180. And yet, I haven't had any stress for the past few days and I already feel a little bored. Maybe stress is good for you. A necessary part of life that brings a whole lot of trouble and strife, but not without reward. This May I'll have been out of high school for 2 full years and in those two years, I didn't stay in one place for more than six or seven months. That’s kind of sad. I feel like I just want to keep picking up and moving and starting over. It’s not like I mess things up (well at least not all the time), I just like change. It’s not that I love change, I'm just willing to change as much as I need to until I'm happy, and right now I feel like constant moving and change is keeping me as happy as I can be for the time. The next year is going to be really exciting. I can feel it.

Last Sunday in church a member of the stake presidency got up and talked about LAC's (Life Altering Choices) I tuned most of it out because I knew ultimately it was going to lead to marriage... which is the most lame topic and yet the most common topic in a singles ward. Fortunately he did deviate and talk about more than just marriage so I tuned in a bit more. He talked about how there are these huge choices we make that alter are lives forever, and we make this choices so quickly and with so little thought. Like deciding to go here or there for school, deciding to drop out of school, or just not go to school all together. Now I think these types of LAC's are pretty obvious and clearly life altering. I think something even more important than LAC's is the LELAC's :D totally made up that acronym (Little Everyday Life Altering Choices) Like, I'm going to go to class today, or I'm going to ready my scriptures, or I'm going to just be happy today. These are the choices that have a profound impact and are most definitely life altering and yet we tend to not think of them because they really are all so small. But then I suppose all of life’s choices are life altering in a little way. But some little choices are life altering in a Big way.

dance.

institute dances are awkward and awesome all at the same time. i love watching people. you can always tell who is just too cool to let go and just dance. i was definitely one of those people until i realized that if your the person that is just dancing like crazy, your the one having more fun. so here is my note of advice for the day. if your going to dance, dance. don't half it like your afraid. no matter how bad you are, if you commit, nobody cares. and usually nobody is looking. so next time you are at one of those awesomely bad dances where the dj should be working in a retirement home, let loose, put your arms in the air, and just dance.

Six questions about my bed and you know me?

What My Bed Says About Me

• Outward appearances are very important to you. You do your best to look good and have an attractive home.
• You are an organized and disciplined person. You do the right thing because you want to, not because people expect you to.
• You are not very high maintenance in general, but you are high maintenance about a few things.
• In relationships, you tend to kick back and let the other person be in charge.
• You tend to be a down to earth, practical person.
• You think in terms of what is actual.You are a bit of a homebody, but you can also make yourself at home anywhere.
  

What Does Your Bed Say About You?

!WaRnInG!

If your going to take it, do it before reading the following.

So I confess, I was reading a friends blog and I happened to stumble upon this survey she took and then blogged about. So I'm totally stealing blogging material here, but whats new? (Thanks Michelle :) So this survey I took was really interesting. There were 6 questions, 4 having 3 choices, and 2 only having 2 choices, which comes upon a total of 56 different specifications(if I know how to do math) of what your bed says about you. Now granted, that number refers to the specification as a whole, not each individual bullet. What I find interesting is that all the bullets seem to hit me right on. Not a few right a few wrong and some completely out there, but they all seem to be me, unfortunately (because some of the stuff isn't very awesome lets be honest.) So I though I would investigate for you all a little bit, kind of me right? (FYI Last chance to take the survey before I completely ruin it for you. FYI) So I went back and took the survey again, making sure to choose different options for each question (so I can get the little "something" it says about you in the results) My Second quiz looked as follows.

• Outward appearances aren't important to you at all. You think that the over emphasis on looks to be shallow.
• You try to be an organized person, but you often fall behind. Certain parts of your life tend to fall into chaos.
• You are very high maintenance. You like everything a certain way, and you're grumpy if things aren't the way you like them.
• In relationships, you tend to be quite dominant. You enjoy taking charge.
• You tend to be a dreamy, head in the clouds type of person. You think in terms of possibilities.
• You are a total homebody. You are happiest when you're at home.

And of course to cover all my bases I of course took it one more time so I could get the last results that I didn't get to the other 4 questions that had 3 options.

• Outward appearances are a concern of yours, but not your primary concern. You try to take care of yourself and your home, but it's not an obsession.
• Your life tends to be completely chaotic. You aren't a very organized person, and you tend to be slow in cleaning up messes.
• You are very low maintenance. You tend to go with the flow, and you're easily pleased.
• You are a traveler. You are comfortable anywhere, and you rarely feel homesick.

So there are all the different options you can get to each question. Now here is what is interesting, thinking back to the results of my quiz (this only pertains to people who know me :) Would you guess that my original (first results) quiz or my second quiz described me more accurately. Funny, the results that show up second are my actual original results, but I think had I received any of the results (other than my original ones) first, I could relate them to myself well enough to say it describes me pretty well. So in the end. Is every option broad enough in some way that you feel it describes you no matter what it's telling you, or does liking a firm bed really mean you are more practical?