Please Try to Rember the First of Octember

So... I would just like to shove this little post in this little time frame that I would like to call the 1st of Octember. (Neatly placed and started on September 30th, but not completed until October 1st)

If your not familiar with the classic Dr. Suess book I highly suggest you go get if from the library, or even better, just go buy it, because its easily his best. Now as a child I read this book and I thought When the heck is Octember and how do I get there? For those who are feeling a bit left out, I'll aid with a breif, but what can't hold a candle to the original, synopsis. There is this young boy who lists all these things that he wants and Dr. Suess goes on to tell him that everything can be his if he only remembers the first of Octember. So he makes this list an goes through in depth these things that he wants and then by the end it just shows this kid waiting with his list until Octember.

I feel as if I have that list and I'm five years old again waiting ever so eager for the 1st of Octember. That list has gotten longer over the years and sure, somethings were scratched out for others. I traded barbies for books and books for boys. But I still feel like I'm five, jumping up and down waiting and waiting. I used to think about it all the time and I would wonder.... If their were an Octember, where would it be. I came to the conclusion as I'm sure Dr. Suess did, that if their were an Octember that it would land between September and October. But where exactly. It always goes straight from September 30th to October 1st with no time for Octember. Then I began to wonder how I could make time for Octember and what I would have to do to get my first of Octember. By this time my five year old little head was so dizzy of dreams of fountains of soda and fields of candy that I usually fell asleep.

And then, at the sad age of 13 or 14 I realized something. It didn't matter if I could find time for Octember (which I couldn't), nothing could happen and no one would ever be able to give me everything on my list. The First of Octember, which I knew was never real anyway, quickly and painfully died. Octember was never really tangible, it was just a dream, an idea that Dr. Suess shared with the world that one perticular little girl seemed to like very much. And yet, still, here I am almost 20 years old, waiting for the First of Octember.

Connection

"Meg, when I'm with you, I-I don't feel so alone." - Hercules... (a little cheesy :) but it fit)

So today I realized that all I want is to feel connected. When life just sucks and everything around you seems to just flatten that's all you want. You want to know that somebody is on your left and someone else is on your right. Because no matter what what happens; death, success, failure, school, bad days and good your still connected. Sometimes we lose old connections and often we make new and only a precious few will hold in the end. But no matter what is lost or gained its important to look at each one with gratitude and awe. Because its times in my life like now, where I have such frail strings with so few people that I understand the importance of them. I'm reminded of the "fates" in Hercules, that use scissors to cut the string that is Hercules' life. I don't know why that's relevant or what it really has to do with anything, but I want the connections I have to be made out of whatever his string was.

Ode to Rain

I woke up the is morning to the smell of rain. On that alone I decided that today was going to be good. The Logan valley is completely socked in with gray clouds that some may constrew to be dreary, but they aren't. There amazing. At a cool 47 degrees Logan is perfect. Raining all morning, my jeans are soked from walking in it all over campus. I can't figure out why I love it so much, but two of my most favorite things in the whole world are the ocean and rain... and fog. Nothing is better than being on the northern coast of california sitting above the cliffs watch the fog roll in while it steadily drips rain rain on you. Euphoric paradise.

Quizzes, Kisses, and Jerusalem

Today I took a quiz in my Horticulture class. I woke up an hour early to study. I failed. The end.

Today is a full moon... Hence True Aggie Night.... Hence thousands of young adults parading themselves on top of a three foot letter A to make out with a complete stranger... enough said.

Today Elyse was accepted into her Jerusalem program, and will therefore be leaving for four and a half months.

Failing? A little.

Excited? Yes.

Jealous? Insanely.

Which answers which? I'm not entirely sure.

Sadly, there all interchangeable...

Am I excited for Elyse? Of course, and jealous, and failing... Where am I going?

Am I failing Horticulture? Sort of, and jealous of everyone else in that class, and excited to be done.

Am I jealous that I'm not on the A? Maybe? I would be excited if I was on the A with somebody that meant something... and yet I'm not and still failing miserably.

Interesting... Who should you vote for?

I think most people would be surprised. I've paid enough attention to the issues to know that I'm closer to McCain's platform than Obama's, what I didn't know was there were to other canidates with higher percentages than McCain... Infact, I only matched McCain at 28%. My highest match was 45% and he's a Libertarian! oh the things I learn.

Too many thoughts, so little time

I walked out my door this morning and was welcomed by fall air. I hadn't expected it. Its been colder other days of the week, but today marked the beginning of my fall. I'm sure it will warm back up again a little, but for the most part fall is here to stay. I hadn't realized how much I missed it until I walked out my door this morning and felt the cold air on my skin and in my lungs. It swirled in my lungs leaving me feeling like my insides were coated with cold clouds. I always forget how much I love to feel the seasons change. It always feels amazing. Whether its the first day of Spring, Winter, Summer, or Fall, they all hold something pleasant in them that makes you want to breathe in a little deeper.

On a different note, school has once again gone into full swing. It hasn't been bad so far, but I anticipate it will get pretty intense with the schedule that I'm working. Its good to be busy though. It leaves you less time to dwell on certain impossibilities. The only thoughts you have time for are the practical ones, and I'm grateful for the distraction.

So I had a little epiphany today and I decided that my life is a vicious vicious cycle of satisfaction, happiness, loneliness, disappointment, depression, and achievement. It seems to flow continuously. I'm not quite sure if its a good thing or if its healthy or what, but it seems pretty balanced between good times and bad.

Just several things I've discovered and noticed in my second year of higher education:

The people you miss are the people that mean the most

Nobody looks at you on campus, there all to busy trying not to meet your eyes

Sleeping with the windows open is magical

I like watching CNN... weird

Roommates come and go... only a few are worth keeping in touch with

We did not fight against Russia in WWII

Family is awesome, absence seems to make the heart grow fonder

Sometimes people surprise you and aren't anything like you thought they were

The USU IT staff actually know what their doing

An I-pod was easily one of my greatest purchases

I'm not as smart as I thought I was, there are some brilliant people that I brush shoulders with

Wal-Mart sucks, Smith's is the only way to go

Figure Skating hurts, but is so worth the effort to learn

Laundry is EXPENSIVE, so is everything else for that matter.

You can get sick of your favorite foods if you eat them too often

Reading the newspaper everyday is actually interesting

There are lots more that I can't thing of, so I may or may not do a continuation.